The very thought of you makes my heart sing,
Like an April breeze on the wings of spring,
And you appear in all your splendor,
My one and only love.
medyo nakakainis kasi sanay na akong mag-isa dito, okay na ako eh..na-appreciate ko na nga eh. but another ahia had to come and i just hate it kasi ngayon, nalulungkot nanaman ako kapag naiiwan ako o iniiwan ako. naffeel ko nanaman yung konting lungkot na naffeel ko before nung 2 ahia ko yung umaalis. i don't know what's up with me and this 'umaalis and iniiwan at naiiwan thing' but one thing i know is, nakakalungkot yun sobra, kahit na sabihin mong hindi naman kami nag-uusap (at minsan awkward to the point na iniisip mo na sana la ka na lang kasama pero mas malungkot yung ganun kaya pwede na rin kahit di kami nag-uusap-usap ), ika nga, don't underestimate the power of presence. hehehe linya ko yan. pero totoo naman eh di ba? i wish mas may sense pa akong kausap at mas okay ang aking pr and pakikisama with matching communication skills para hindi naman sila mabored kasama ako..kasi minsan naiinis lang ako sa sarili ko kasi hindi ko ma-lighten up yung mood nila hindi ako makapag-try magform ng bond. alam kong workplace yun pero. hay..ewan! gusto ko sanang ma-liven up ang people..but i guess i just don't have it in me. pano kasi hindrance nanaman si low self-esteem.
speaking of another ahia, okay naman siya. masayahin siyang tao, pero hindi ko kasi alam panu makitungo sa kanya..that's the sad thing. kasi isang MH un, as in malaking hadlang. hindi ko lam kung anong sasabihin ko sa kanya minsan kasi may sense siyang kausap eh ako la masyado unless personalan ang topic. hindi ko pa siya kilala. but i'm willing to find out. onti onti siguro. i wish maging friend ko rin siya. so far medyo mabait naman siya. he's a very intellectual person, funny and makulit siya i think basta makuha mo lang kung pano mai-out sa kanya yung side niyang yun or if you speak the same jokes and have the same language on humor. siya lang nakapagpakain ng ponkan sa'kin nang hindi ako pinipilit na kainin yun(he doesn't know that tiny detail). in fairness matamis! hehehe. may katarayan siya which gives me the impression na he might be like the people who i didn't like back in high school and college. btw, he's a fellow la sallian coz he's from csb. musikero din. he does have a relatively wide range when it comes to music, he plays the keyboards, former altar server and choir, he had a band before and he also know how to play the drums din ata. minsan may naiisip nga ako eh..ano bang hindi kayang gawin nitong taong ito? hehehe. i have a feeling that i would've been like this person kung pwede ko lang sundin at nasunod lang ang mga gusto kong mangyari in life. did i mention na he plays badminton din ata? see?! ano ba tao ba itong kasama ko dito? grabe ewan ko san niya kinukuha yung mga puzzles niya na natutuwa at na-chchallenge akong sagutan. na hindi ko pa naman sinusukuan at hindi niya ibibigay ang sagot kahit sirit ka na! talk about ewan! oh yeah and hilig niya sa coffee at madalas siyang magyosi. ngayon lang ako nakatagal makasama ang isang taong may 'scent' ng yosi ng more than 1 minute! my gosh, nasasanay na ata ako. naku kapag nakita niya 'to, it's either he doesn't care! or maisip niyang bakit ko kailangang i-type ang mga bagay-bagay tungkol sa kanya..well, in case mabasa niya 'to i have a message for him--- kailangan ko ng outlet kaya ako nagbblog, ever heard of a diary? parang ganun 'to so wag ka na lang magreklamo kung balak mo. at huwag ka na rin mainis, these are my thoughts at alangan namang lagyan ko pa ng intellectual property rights etong sinusulat ko?! pasensya ka na, gusto ko lang maisulat dito ang happenings sa aking insane life you happen to pass by my world kasi eh, so this make it a coincidence na ikaw itong nasulat ko dito. oki? wala ka na rin namang magagawa eh kasi napublish na hehehe.. pero kung nabasa mo 'to sabihin mo sa'kin ha! at kapag nagalit ka or wla kang care, sabihin mo rin. pero wag na wag kang magsisinungaling sa reactions mo, dahil kahit may care ka o wla, magagalit ako sa iyo!. yn lang..=)
c pc naman, hindi na ako ganun kabaliw dun. pero he's handsome pa rin talaga at least for me he is.
lagi kong sinasabi sa mga people outside work na 1 year lang ako dito, sa mga tao naman na nandito sa loob i don't give them an idea on gano katagal ko balak tumagal dito. ewan ko..masasagot ko lang siguro yan if i can concentrate on work na. for now..confused din ako.
nga pla i received a sad news kanina..ewan ko kung makakapunta ako sa wake, i hope i can.
i want to have my eyes checked feeling ko may konting prob na siya or baka iniisip ko lang kasi natatakot akong lumabo eyes ko..
videoke tayo!!! kaso wla akong budget!!! =(
"the dangers of asking 'why?' "
hah! discovered something new! but i can't say if it is good or not. kung ano yun? this is it: delikadong magtanong ng 'why'. don't ask it unless you're ready to really know why. weird? not really. especially when you find yourself asking this question when you're in particular situations. minsan naman, kapag nagtanong ka sa ibang taong kung bakit, usually as a follow-up question, iisipin pa ng iba na masyado ka nang nagtatanong at yung iba..sasagutin ka na lang ng...."bakit mo tinatanong" kung sinusubukan pa nilang maging polite at hindi maka-offend (hello!!!! obvious ba?! kaya ka nagtatanong kasi gusto mong malaman duh! hehehe joke! pilosopo e noh!) at yung iba naman sasagutin ka na lang ng isang brutal na..."walang pakialamanan!" whether or not nakaka-offend ang pagkakasabi nila nun.
maiba ako, sobrang sayang talaga!!!! asar!!! ang bagal ko kasing mag-isip. at susme! ang bilis kasi ng reflexes!!!! kakainis!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ang stupid. yet again, i have proven myself worthy of being called stupid when that person is around!!!!!!!!!!! ngayon ko lang nakita ang isa pang negative side ng pagiging tanga. sayang talaga!!!!!!!!nakaka-asar, i ruined it! i myself ruined it! that's the most difficult part to accept. kasi mas madali pang tanggapin na nagiging tanga at nagmumukhang stupid ako sa kanya kapag kaharap ko siya! ano bang klaseng nilalang yun! bigla na lang kasing titingin sa monitor mo habang nagbblog ka! tama ba yun?! nababaliw nanaman ako...hehehe joke!
balik sa topic. next, kapag tinanong ko ang sarili ko on certain situations, ng 'why?' ay sus ayoko na kasi minsan nakakatakot yung mga sagot ko sa sarili kong tanong.. things that either i'm not willing to accept or things that might not be the right answer so delikado kung i-accept siya.
eto na muna nga gtg na eh!
pst! hahahaha! hehehehe!! tihihihi! pagbigyan niyo na ang bata (ngek!) eh kasi na-hhigh ako ngayon! ang aga aga, it's 7:54 am!!! hahaha eh kasi na e-LSS ako!! ang saya!!!hahaha dahil sa action songs kahapon at nung saturday!! hinahanap ko yung lyrics sa net pero la pa akong nakikita hehehe.. kaya ngayon, nang matuwa ako kaysa pinagttyagaan ko siyang i-hum, i listened to it na lang. since wla pa akong makitang lyrics, hehehe may paraan pa, minsan naman kasi na-mememorize ng mga tao yung song kakapakinig hehehe since na-e-LSS rin lang ako, edi ulit ulitin ko nang pakinggan! *^-^* kaso ngayon, buong cd na pinapakinggan ko!! hahaha aliw! sana ganito mood ko hanggang mamaya. sana bumalik sina Ceena and Sidney! hehehe para mas masaya!!! go Word! nung saturday, the music ministry had a meeting. aminin ko, kinakabahan ako kasi..hehehe ewan ko..i guess it's because natakot ako sa magiging reactions nila kapag nalaman nila ang plans. baka sabihin nila 'ano ba yan?!' pero i wanted to be firm on my decision on implementing that plan so inisip ko na na kung sakaling may gusto silang baguhin, konting pa-edit edit na lang..pero i want them to give the plan a chance to prove itself, if hindi magwork...(although) isip ko talaga magwowork siya, we'll have to change stuffs. oki naman yung meeting may ilan akong nakalimutan pero minor things na lang siya. and grabe nawala pa yung agenda na ginawa ko two weeks before! nawala siya the night before the meeting! ay sus! taranta ako and cry cry ako ever!!!! (well hindi naman ako talagang umiyak sama lang loob ko.) hehehe ^-^ pero buti na lang ako ang gumawa kaya nasa isip ko pa. pero may ilan pa rin akong nakalimutan but i managed to discuss with them the important things. bumabagal nanaman pc namin eh kaka-ayos pa lang nun friday, bawas na nga yung files eh. eh kasi lalagay lagay pa ng counter hindi naman kailangan. bad trip! kung hindi inintroduce yun sa bro ko edi sana hindi kami naghahanap ng ganun! hmm pc was here a while ago but i'm too tired to care!bwahahaha!!! great progress!!!!grabe ang saya not to care!!!!hehehe..oki pa rin siya pero tintamad lang ako. and no energy for pc as of now. hehehe!
it's been a while since i last punched in some keys to write a real entry. ka-date daw haha! ako, magmamadre daw! haha! although it's too early for me to close my doors, hindi ko rin naman kasi masasabi. pero sa ngayon feeling ko wala pa akong isang oras sa loob pinapalabas na ako sa kumbento!!!!hehehehe. starting mga 2nd week of april ata wala na, hehe. things have changed. talagang nagbago. is it just me or...ewan! kasi i think minsan kahit kasama ko yung mga taong magugulo sa life ko hehehe (referrin' to close friends) hindi na ata ako ganun ka gulo. i feel like i'm a different person, or eto ba talaga yung ako? labo ko noh?! weird pa! hindi ko na yata kilala yung taong nakikita ko sa salamin, ibang iba. dami rin naman kasing nagbago kaya katakataka pa ba? gumagawa nanaman ako ng sarili kong mundo. masaya na ako dun sa 'jolly' me (hehehe sounds like jollibee!) anyway, yun nga, i'm a lot happier that way, kaysa naman yung 'ultra; shy type girl nung elementary. i want to prove a lot of things, but it seems like i'm not in the right situations for me to have a chance to prove them and do what i want. pero ba 'i want'? selfish noh? yeah, tuwing nagbblog ako, dun lang lumalabas ang selfish side ko. kailangan ko rin naman ng 'outlet' ayokong maloka noh! but at this point, i think i won't be surprised kung isa sa mga araw na ito maging bahay ko na ang mental. grabe! ang pangit kayang maging loner noh!!!!! it's fridgin' freaky at ewan ko pano ko pa mai-eexplain.
actually, inaantok nanaman ako dito. as usual. may nagbago na rin naman kahit papaano, pero i really feel bad. why, kasi i know how it feels to be in that place. and what's worse is that i couldn't do anything to help out, even worse--i seem to contribute quite well on why that's happening. bad trip di ba?!
kainis pati, sa bahay, things aren't going well. people are getting worse and the one thing that i think i should do seems to be the one thing that i can't do no matter how hard i try. minsan sabi ko suko na ako, ayoko na, lalo na kapag sinasagot ako ng pabalang ng bro ko (kahit minsan okay naman siya), kapag may nag-aaway sa bahay sobrang tagal na until now hindi pa sila okay... minsan gusto ko nang mag-give up. minsan gusto mong humingi ng help sa people na sa tingin mo makakatulong sa'yo tapos..maiinis ka lang kasi it's either la sila (minsan di naman nila fault) or minsan nagsasalita ka nga, hindi naman nakikinig at walang paki. bad trip ulit. grabe feeling ko kung hindi ako naging part ng FC ...baka tagal na akong nag-give up. teka, hindi na maganda 'tong pinasususulat ko. stop na saka na lang.
hay naku! sa wakas nagload din yun page!!! hehehe...kahapon ko pa hinihintay 'to noh! teka, i'm solving something eh. tom na lang..hehehe
matagal na yata akong hindi nagppost sa blog.
tinatamad kasi ako. kahit naman ngayon eh.. ano na ba ang latest? you might want to ask..well..kanina hehehe bumili ako ng isang bagay na never ko naisip na bibilhin ko with willingness. i think it's a waste of money kasi.. oh well, sa nangyayari sa life ko ngayon, hinid ko alam kung dapat pa akong magulat. feeling ko everythin's possible. may dapat pala akong ma-accomplish today, i hope magawa ko at hindi ako tamarin. hay..so sleepy..and bored.ewan ko, bakit kasi iniisip ko pa yun! e mas okay nga ang walang pakialam! okay fine! hindi rin okay kung la kang pakialam. fine! pero mas magaan kapag wala ka nang dapat iniisip kung hindi sarili mo. kaso, i'll feel bad naman kung magiging ganun ako! ay ewan!!! grabe pumapayat pa ata ako lalo!!! my gosh! dapat hindi na kasi underweight na ako!!! naku, isang beses kasi napanood ko sa tv na may program sila to donate blood, ay sus, gusto ko man makahelp baka sabihin mas nangangailangan ako ng help dahil sa kapayatan ko! well may fats din ako pero not really enough kaya mabilis akong ginawin. anyway, o di ba? hindi ka makatulong kahit gusto mo, ewan ko ba, la naman ako sigurong alagang anacoda sa tiyan at siya ang nagcoconsume ng lahat ng fats na nakakain ko!
teka, may nakita akong blog! ang astig! ang lupit! grabe ang nice kaso sarili niyang layout ata yun, sigh, sayang kung cs lang ako siguro makakagawa rin ako ng ganun.! kaso hindi siya cs and the person is a teenager! kung sabagay, kung interest mo...
i still want to learn how to play the drums! ewan ko, honestly, i think medyo shy ako and mahihirapan ako, pero gusto ko eh...! stubborn huh?!
okay, nakalimutan ko next na sasabihin ko..hay naku..
teka, maghahanap na lang ako ng companies na nangagailangan ng ojt.
code 01: sd place hehehehe..(well not really, kasi walang makakapalit sa sd place ko sa la salle. di ba mga frenz? lam nila kung san ang bahay ko dun!*^-^* and i miss it..awww....)
status: (error: this feature has been removed)
mood: di ko alam hehehehe..
report:
for the past few days, i think i'm starting to appreciate being alone in this room. in fact, i like it better if they're not here (my ahias-got three of them now). since two of them will be here again, full time, next week, i just want to savor this sd time hehehe..busy season is near, it's actually in May.
my jaw still hurts(but it's bearable) from the surgery last saturday.
our pc hasn't been doing well, it's getting worse coz now it couldn't detect our mousie!
may bagong i-eexplore sa friendster!
another opportunity or 'inner turbulence' came. an email was sent to me by a company. the positions they're offering are quite related to my course and i want to give it a shot, i'm not sure though if that's alright coz i've been here for a few months only..God help!
i want to be with them right now, coz with them, i feel better, i feel like myself again.....i think i feel lonely... you know that feeling you have when you're left alone in your room, you can't sleep and you just find yourself thinking about a lot of stuffs? don't mind me..it's just one of those moments..sigh!
one thought~ friends.
just for a short stolen time, i let my that facial expression falter
i wish i could go back to the time when things seem to be a lot easier....
it feels nice to look at his face...and see him smile......=)
code 01: got another nice moment this morning...=)
status: super slowly improving
mood: calm
report:
i really can't help but take a few glances at him..he's not really gorgeous or handsome...but he looks soo nice especially when he smiles..he should do that more often. wish he'll be my good friend too.
but whenever i wish someone to be my good friend, it doesn't happen. 1. i get shy when i talk to them, 2. they are usually the ones that doesn't have the same train of thought as i do or we don't think alike most of the time. 3. we don't seem to belong to each other's crowd. and all these results to us having a deadair when given the chance to talk coz we can't relate. it sucks!i heard from him that this is his last week on his real planet he just went there for vacation-his definition of vacation being- the job that he seems to consider his hobby and specialty. i'm really weird, know why? coz now that we have a new comer here and now that he's gonna go back to his 'doom' hahaha...sigh...
code 02: my ministry...(the id side talking)
status: honestly i don't know if i can give a positive rating or a negative one or none=stagnant yeah i think that's it
mood: i don't know what else i can do..
report:
so far, plans remained as plans. haven't materialized them yet. the workshop- i was hoping and praying that every mem would be able to attend all 3 sessions but they seem to have other things to do ALL THE TIME! i know i keep on saying that i trust that they can come or attend the activities we have instore for them when they can, and they are doing their very best to at least be visible in such activities. but sometimes i can't help but wonder or think...why'd they join anyway? for passtime? to be there when they have nothing to do? and darn me! i always understand them!- not try to understand them, but i really understand them! an idiot huh?! and i don't seem to have what it takes to draw people into this circle of youth esp. in my ministry. what is a steward without that kind of 'charisma' ? or it can be just because of me...the way i treat them, the way i am, and the way i approach them-not convincing enough. i can't use the fone coz my bro's always online, and if i get the chance to call these people up, it's either they're not around/not available, or i simply just could get through their landline. and if i send them an sms they don't f***@!! reply! what is wrong with you people?! i'm holding onto the thinnest thread that connects me to any hope left in this ministry and darn! i just can't hold on to hope (if you can still call it that or false hope) alone. i can't even fridgin' form a fridgin' 4-member core group! some steward huh! call this self-pity? no! i call this reality! if there's such a thing as a bad luck, i'm having one now. my 'other side' is telling me that if having such members as an ENORMOUS challenge, then i must be capable of doing big things coz this won't be given to me if i don't have what it takes to overcome this 'trial'. and as expected in a person having the scales as her sign, i believe in justice and fairness. they say that the bigger the things you are capable of doing, the bigger the challenges and responsibilities given to you.
i can't do everything...i guess..but i this stubborn head of mine doesn't want to accept it-not yet. just don't know when to quit ehh!
oh my! i just realized that i've been resting for 7 MONTHS! since i graduated! no wonder i feel so lazy! i'm even at the point of worrying on getting soooo used to this! this is bad, busy season will be starting on May, i might not be able to handle it. i heard it's quite difficult. adjusting time yet again! darn..hungry..must eat first...
i'm reading some fanfics that are quite entertaining but at the same time this same thing irritates me endlessly. wanna know why? coz of the grammatical errors darn it!
after weeks of not listening to my anime cd, eto ako ngayon. weiss! great songs talaga! DARN GLUHEN!!!!!!grrr!!!!wish it never existed!!!!!! DAMN! WHO'S STUPID ENOUGH TO SUGGEST SUCH AN IDEA ?!!!!!!!! (chokes him/her) hate him/her! sorry gluhen fans...
sige na nga. balik muna sa dating format.
code 01:
status: improving
mood: *^-^* (acceptable description naman di ba?)
report:
this morning, nakasalubong ko yung dating kapitbahay namin na ngayon ay halos kapitbahay na lang namin hehehehe ang gulo noh! nywz, medyo konting chitchat at chika. she's an old lady btw. una, i just acknowledge her at la naman akong balak kausapin siya medyo gusto ko kasing makarating ng maaga dito sa office hehehehe but God has other plans kaya kami nakapag-chika ng super konti pero it made me smile--which led to another nice thing that happened, after namin maghiwalay ni old lady, nakasakay na ako ng cab. mabait yung mama na nasakyan ko i said good morning and he greeted back with the same enthusiasm. sabi niya he's from caloocan at naligaw lang siya sa area namin so he asked if i can show him the way. sabi niya kaya lang daw niya ako pinasakay kasi naka-smile daw ako at natuwa siya (feeling ko totoo naman yung sinabi niya) pero hindi ko namalayang naka-smile ako hehehehe..siguro nagdday-dream ako nun hehehe JOKE! i found out na he's a guitarist and that he's part of a music ministry sa kanila so masaya ang kwentuhan. we can relate hehehe. pagdating namin dito sa office, nag-appear pa kami hehehe and said our goodlucks sa kani-kanilang ministries. i saw God this morning and He wants to tell me to keep on smiling.hehe but not like an idiot hehehe..He's so good! nagtanong ako kay ahia nga pla dahil salbaheng hijackers na yan! hi-nijack computer ko sa bahay! tsaka hindi ganun ka-tahimik dito kanina hanggang sa umalis siya at umalis din yung isa pang ahia ko, pero i don't know what to expect for the day but this has been a good start. di ba? ^-^ thanks po God sa blessings ninyo this morning. btw, nagsabi na rin c zay ee u hoe lo. okay lang. btw, next week may new person kami, sana okay siya at funny hehehehe para masaya..mas masaya kung may comedy dito hehehehe di ba? sana hindi siya bad noh! hehehe at hindi antipatiko hehehehe (gets?)! hahahaha..
yday, mapayapa ang aking life dito sa office. nice aura actually. pero that doesn't mean okay na akong walang kausap dito. i'm still trying to get used to it so far, i can say the efforts were not put to waste. ngayon pa lang ako nagbbreakfast hehehehe..pasaway! bibili pa pala ako ng candle na ipapa-bless. teka, i'll try ulit kung san yun ginawa ni ahia kanina..be back later-siguro.
friday morning..bukas wala ako dito sasabihin ko pa lang na hindi ko siya nakita ngayong umaga at baka hindi ko siya makita d whole day pero bigla siyang dumating..he's in a hurry..he took the keys to the other part of the kingdom. he's serious. never seen him THAT serious. i wonder what's up. i wanted to ask him if he was here a while ago coz the seats were moved but i wasn't able to..was tongue-tied..yet AGAIN!!!!i just managed to look at his face.i don't know what's happening..OMIGOSH! he's gonna go back his backpack's here! natataranta ako!!!!!!kaba!!!!my God!!! Diyos ko Diyos ko!!!!!...i have to fridgin' CALM DOWN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!naiinis na ako! i couldn't even fridgin' CALM DOWN! narinig ko lang yung beep ng id..tumalon ang puso ko sa kaba at takot!!!!natatakot nanaman ako!!!!!!!!!!!!!!=(ang sakit pa ng likod ko..backpain.awch!song for this morning...hay naku be back siguro later..di ko lang sure.
i'm back!
he's a little off kanina..he went back to get his bakcpack and probably noticed i'm busy so he didn't say he's leaving. but i think he tried to wait for a few seconds to tell me that he's gonna go to his side of the world. and checked-on something in the "mailbox" i kept on glancing at him, actually waiting for him to tell me he's gonna go back to his own world but decided against it after a few seconds and left. when he took the key this morning, the only words he spoke was, i wasn't even sure if that was "punta lang ako sa (di ko naintindihan saan) or "may kukunin lang ako." at least he talked to me..well that was because he probably noticed i was looking at him with question in my eyes..'noticed' coz he didn't even look at me. i told you a while ago that he looked serious..i think i know now why... a bad higher-up seemed to have taken a liking on- maybe getting a little mad at him. maybe that's why. it's part of the job. but if my presumptions are correct, then, he probably knows it's part of work but still got a little 'inis'.
next topic: still about him *^-^* but this one involves a little analysis. i'm still tryin' to figure out when his birthday is i'm having some clues. my guess is it can fall only from july until september. acutally, i do have a way to find out but i have to do something not legal and not good so never mind i'll just figure it out myself. besides, where's the thrill if i'll just find out easily? (',)
oo nga pla, ay, nakalimutan ko kung anong sasabihin ko..hehehehehehe..*^-^* comedy ko talaga
friday morning..bukas wala ako dito sasabihin ko pa lang na hindi ko siya nakita ngayong umaga at baka hindi ko siya makita d whole day pero bigla siyang dumating..he's in a hurry..he took the keys to the other part of the kingdom. he's serious. never seen him THAT serious. i wonder what's up. i wanted to ask him if he was here a while ago coz the seats were moved but i wasn't able to..was tongue-tied..yet AGAIN!!!!i just managed to look at his face.i don't know what's happening..OMIGOSH! he's gonna go back his backpack's here! natataranta ako!!!!!!kaba!!!!my God!!! Diyos ko Diyos ko!!!!!...i have to fridgin' CALM DOWN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!naiinis na ako! i couldn't even fridgin' CALM DOWN! narinig ko lang yung beep ng id..tumalon ang puso ko sa kaba at takot!!!!natatakot nanaman ako!!!!!!!!!!!!!!=(ang sakit pa ng likod ko..backpain.awch!song for this morning...hay naku be back siguro later..di ko lang sure.
he's a little off kanina..he went back to get his bakcpack and probably noticed i'm busy so he didn't say he's leaving. but i think he tried to wait for a few seconds to tell me that he's gonna go to his side of the world. and checked-on something in the "mailbox" i kept on glancing at him, actually waiting for him to tell me he's gonna go back to his own world but decided against it after a few seconds and left. when he took the key this morning, the only words he spoke was, i wasn't even sure if that was "punta lang ako sa (di ko naintindihan saan) or "may kukunin lang ako." at least he talked to me..well that was because he probably noticed i was looking at him with question in my eyes..'noticed' coz he didn't even look at me. i told you a while ago that he looked serious..i think i know now why... a bad higher-up seemed to have taken a liking on- maybe getting a little mad at him. maybe that's why. it's part of the job. but if my presumptions are correct, then, he probably knows it's part of work but still got a little 'inis'.
next topic: still about him *^-^* but this one involves a little analysis. i'm still tryin' to figure out when his birthday is i'm having some clues. my guess is it can fall only from july until september. acutally, i do have a way to find out but i have to do something not legal and not good so never mind i'll just figure it out myself. besides, where's the thrill if i'll just find out easily? (',)
oo nga pla, ay..nakalimutan ko kung anong sasabihin ko..hehehehehe..*^-^*komedy ko talaga.
friday morning..bukas wala ako dito sasabihin ko pa lang na hindi ko siya nakita ngayong umaga at baka hindi ko siya makita d whole day pero bigla siyang dumating..he's in a hurry..he took the keys to the other part of the kingdom. he's serious. never seen him THAT serious. i wonder what's up. i wanted to ask him if he was here a while ago coz the seats were moved but i wasn't able to..was tongue-tied..yet AGAIN!!!!i just managed to look at his face.i don't know what's happening..OMIGOSH! he's gonna go back his backpack's here! natataranta ako!!!!!!kaba!!!!my God!!! Diyos ko Diyos ko!!!!!...i have to fridgin' CALM DOWN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!naiinis na ako! i couldn't even fridgin' CALM DOWN! narinig ko lang yung beep ng id..tumalon ang puso ko sa kaba at takot!!!!natatakot nanaman ako!!!!!!!!!!!!!!=(ang sakit pa ng likod ko..backpain.awch!song for this morning...hay naku be back siguro later..di ko lang sure.
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